pasalubong

Araw ng Sabado nun, patapos na ang summer. At bago magsimula ang panahon ng tag-ulan, napagplanuhan nating magkita muna at magkasama ng one week para sa post celebration ng ating 1year anniversary. Babiyahe ka ng gabi ng linggo, darating ka ng lunes.

We grew up in the same province, pero magkalayo tayo kasi dito na ko nagtrabaho sa Manila bilang HR sa isang kompanya.

Nameet kita dahil sa chat sa computer, nanotice kita because you're smart and funny. Napapatawa mo ko lagi pero sensible kausap.

Despite our distance, naging malapit tayo sa isa't-isa. 
Hanggang nung umuwi ako nung summer last year, nagkita din tayo sa wakas.

Sabi ko nga, wow, ang guwapo mo! Yun yung first meet, first date natin. Pinakilala mo na agad ako sa family mo. Nakakatuwa kasi parang kilalang kilala na nila ako dahil sa mga kuwento mo.

And how can i forget, nung sabi mo sa kanila, "can i steal her for a while guys?"

kinabahan ako kasi sa kuwarto mo tayo dumiretso.

Tapos pinapikit mo pa ko bago mo binuksan ang pinto.

Pagbukas ng pinto, sabi mo, "open your eyes rachel"

naiyak ako sa tuwa..

Nasa wall mo ay banner na may nakasulat na "can u be my girlfriend?" at heart hugis pusong gawa sa petals ng roses na sa gitna ng heart is a pillow with my printed photo.

Sobrang tuwa at saya ko at sobrang touched ako, i hugged you and said yes.

Since then, my days were filled with joy and with your love. Sobrang sweet mo, sobrang bait and romantic. I couldnt ask for more but to be your wife someday.

Since nasa manila ako at nasa probinsiya ka, minsan lang tayong magkita.

Pero yung mga minsang pagkikita nating yun, you never fail to amaze me.

You came for my birthday, you stayed with me on christmas, we celebrated new year together, you surprised me last valentines day and every chance you get.

For me, you are the perfect man, my man..

A week before the said plan na pupunta ka dito, you were so excited na nakapack na agad mga gamit mo pati mga pasalubong mo.

Lahat na ata ng friends ko nakaclose mo, kaya lahat sila may pasalubong din sa'yo. That's one thing that i love about you, you love everything and everyone around me. At alam mo ba? Mahal ka din nila, lalo na ako.

Friday you texted me:

[rach, my life, thank u for everything. I love you so much. You gave meaning to my existence. Alam mo bang ikaw ang nagpakompleto ng buhay ko?]

i smiled.. Typical you.. Di ka na ata naubusan ng kasweetan sa katawan..

I replied:

[and you changed my life. Yung bad girl, napabago mo.ü i can't wait to be with u]

you texted:

[don't worry lifey, malapit na tayong magkasama. And malapit na rin yung panahon that i'll be with you all the time. Surprise! Surprise! :-)]

i didn't replied, eto na ba? You'll ask me to marry you?

Then night of friday you posted a photo of your car on facebook and said: "This'll be the car that will take me to a journey to be with my lifey. :-)"

Your friends and my friends commented and said their goodluck to you.

And nasurprise ako, kasi after a few minutes, you posted a slide show video of us.

I was teary eyed the whole time i watched it.

You thanked our friends who supported us all the way and our families. And your message for me was:

"i will always love you. Hanggang sa dulo ng walang kadulo dulo."

pagkatapos kong mapanood, tinext kita a tumawag ka agad at sabi mo, na bakit ako umiiyak, di ka pa naman patay. You tried to humor me kasi naiyak talaga ako sa tuwa.

We talked for an hour and you said may pupuntahan ka kinabukasan, kukunin mo yung surprise mo sa akin.

We said i love yous and goodnights.

Before ako natulog, nagreminisce ako of our past, kung pano mo nabago ang buhay ko. Dati party girl ako, and because of you, i’ve changed. And the greatest thing talaga? Yung nagbalik ulit yung pananampalataya ko sa kanya. You dramaticaly changed my life. J

Saturday morning pagkagising ko nabasa ko agad ang text mo:

[lifey, nakuha ko na. Sana magustuhan mo to. if you'll take this, i promise, i'll be with u all the time. Oopps, im giving u a hint already, mahal na mahal kita and nothing or no 1 can stop me from loving u.."

i smiled and yes, may idea na ako. Pero i don't want to spoil the excitement. 


Tinawagan kita, to my surprise, ate mo nakausap ko.

After that, di ko na namalayan at di ko na alam ngyari.

That  was 3months ago.

After 3 months, madami na ring nabago. Isa lang naman ang hindi, yung pagmamahal ko sa’yo.

Ngayon, monthsarry natin, and i'm here in your place. Teary eyed ulit ako lifey.. But not because of happiness. But because of pain and melancholy. Andaya mo eh..  Ang pangit ng surprise mo lifey.  You broke my heart that day. 

On that Saturday morning na pauwi ka na, your car collided with a 16wheeler truck. Binawian ka agad ng buhay.Ang sakit, sobra..

Patapos na ang araw, uuwi na ko ulit in a while. Di ko alintana ang onti-onting pagbuhos ng ulan. Tumayo na ko and i stared at your tomb, a cold breeze touched my whole being. Naramdaman ko ang lamig, and I cried kasi di na kita makakasama o makakausap man lang sa mga sandaling ganito.

Sa mga panahong ganito namimiss kita..

Mali... sa lahat ng panahon, namimiss kita.

Tinignan ko ang kamay ko, and there it is... your gift.

The engagement ring that you fail to give me. And at the back of my mind, and it's like i heard you whisper "i'll be with you all the time.". I turned my back, and walked away..  I won’t say goodbye kasi alam ko tutuparin mo ang pangako mo..  alam ko kasama kita kahit saan... kahit kailan....