Tipsy mind,sober heart...Sober mind,tipsy heart..

After n0vember 2009,
Ngaun lang ulit ako uminom..
the usual,,, mskt sa ulo, g0t red eyes then asthma...
il edit ds t0m0r0w.SleEpy n q..

--- aun, c0ntinuati0n. im suffering frm a headache...

i was aloNe drinking last niGht wHile talkin to my friends oN d ph0ne.
and i even g0t a chance to talk to my lady love..
i've beEn sad, beEn hapPy..
ryt n0w,im in d eDge of dcsi0n making..
my heart and my mind is having a sPlit dEcisi0n. BuT they should c0me up to a meEting p0int to st0p hurting eaCh other..
1 of dem should st0p being a stUb0rn or at least underStand eaCh other.
D heart says: keEp oN l0ving.. ThougH she cAnt take cAre of me,, l0ving her makes me freE

D loGicAL sidE said: step back.. Even in d basketb0l game, dErz a maximum player. RiGht n0w, u are n0t d mvp. So, sit ur asS oN the bench and just watch d true player do what u H0pe ur d0in..
buT oN d briGHT sidE, i must tell, i undErStand that heart here will always have a tHing to ur lady.And i gez dats toleraBLe.. BuT for nOw, step down..step bAck. coz i kn0w, u cnt step away.

--so there, i gez my two sidEs met halfway.. AlthougH my heart cn be t0o damN stUBborn s0metimes...

Both are tipSy last niGht.
my mind was tipSy with the alcohol sPirit..
and my mind overdrunk with hapPines coz of my ladylove

both are sober n0w.
well,except for the silly heart dat stil g0in crazY for my lady..

so much for n0w. Ths heaDAche is killin' me

IGNITER CEZAR INOCELDA

I love this kiddo... so smart, witty and lovable.. he's a brat though,, hehe spoiled kasi..
one and only boy, plus bunso.. I duno if sino mas matalino sila ni claire (my sister)..

yung sis ko nagsimulang makipagcompete when she was in fifth grade ata or sixth grade..

nakinational competition siya sa metrobank quizbee..
mathematician eh

while my baby bro started before he started first grade...dancing, science, math, etc.

im just the nobody amongst the kids..

hehe

im the most emo too..

i love my baby bro so much...
i remember the day i first saw hi..
we we're in the hospital, nervously waiting.
kami ng sis ko,normal delivery while babybro here experienced CS.
ng nakita ko siya sa window ng nursery, grabe, tears of joy.. he was so cute,, and fragile.. he was crying and i was excited to lift him up with my arms..
as a baby,, i dont sing him lullaby... i used to baby sit him and he always laugh and smile everytime i sing angel by shaggy.
when he was 2y/o to four,, i baby sit him with fhm..
pag iiyak na siya,, bigyan ko lang siya ng fhm or uno. tigil na siya..
a baby boy happily browsing mens magazine.. haha

i gave him a gadget mag one day,, he got tired watching the pics and stil choosed the mens mag
hehe

naughty baby boy


love you niter, ate mafe will be here for you anytime and that is always...

ill take care of you, i promise

DEATH

You wake me up toniGht
WHY are you here?
you should have warned me
I THouGht my time is n0t tHis near

i never thouGht you'd come so soon
BUT n0w you're here inside my room

is this the omen?
is it time for me to leave?
i thought you'll n0t yet come
I TH0uGht i'd still live

you stareD at me
AND Your eyes are sPeakin
"WE should leave" dats what they're sayin

i smiled so sad and i was ready to rise
I JUSt fELt tearz floweD fr0m my eyes

you took me by the hand and my soul drifted apart
i asked: "is tHis the real time?
is tHis the end or the start?"

but i guesS,whatever it may be,
Wherever we may go,
I should aCcept it
MAYbe i dEserve it
SO i'll go with you

we flew away...
blankness followeD..
wind cradleD me,
Lull me into an endlesS sleEp...


---
wrote tHis when i was in HiGh school.
during crucial time..
e2 na rin ung time. Ung gbing i cheateD dEath. Muntik na k0ng mamatay, i was in a bike With loose break then 10wHEeler truck (not sure if it was ten but it was hella big) cAme aCR0sS. I was saveD by an inch or two.
i fELt d wind/air cAuseD by the sPeEd of d truck. Napatayo mga ta0ng nakaupo sa kaBilang kalsada.. it was dark,buT they saw what hapPeneD. kung di ko nailiko agad ung bike, then wala na ko ngay0n. Di na din nkapaGColege.
it was intense

Beside that christmas tree

/ She's not in a gift box, no ribbons or laces
/ I Acted like a kid, then excitement and happiness races
/ Did santa came late or santa came early?
/ bcoz there's a precious gift beside that christmas tree
/ WRapped in a sweater with black and gray
/ "PLease say that's mine", thats what i prayed
/ Last year i've been bad but i've been good too
/ THis year le'me have her & i'll be a good boo
/ THis is truly a surprise if this is a gift
/ 'Coz i'll Promise santa, she's the one i will keep
/ i went close to this precious gift to see if my name's in it
/ i looked every part ive never seen it
/ THen it hits me i know where it is
/ The place to know if its mine, hers or his
/ its her heart it's written inside
/ so just tell me, there's no reason to hide
/ I Promise santa i w0nt mind if he's early or late
/ Just tell me you're my life's precious gift, my souls perfect mate

-vhonskall

~wrote tHis while having my lucky me instant maC and cheEse and rebisco buTter sandwich.
its for that Girl besidE that xmas treE.
its the 1st quarter of 2010 btw.

Aftermath

i just talked to her...
awkward xempRe..
but at least we talkeD bouT it and,ok naman.
naHiHiya lang ako.

geEz..
Parang HiGh sch0ol,
Parang an0ther cAse of pupPy love..

its nice to hear her voice..

Fr0m 1 to 10
Mga 6-7 ung pakrmdam ko ngayon na awkwardness..

il miss sending gms to ruby..
infaCt,misSing it already..

pero,keEp it low na talaga.,

go0dm0rning world

Senti Mode

I had a tiring day..
sobrang pagod,sakit pa sa katawan.
This monday became interesting.
she knew..
Am i that transParent?
now i dont know how to deal with it.
cold treatment?
haist..
i gez thats why it cALLeD "crush", it'l crush ur heart biGtime..
saying i love u is easy, i gez..
BuT anticipating for a resPoNse is hurtful...
alriGht,jim cArey,wheres the mask?
time to sleEp,,
T0m0row wil be lady gaga theme.
poker faCe.

il Hit the saCk,hope to cAtch soMe zzZs

gudnyt world
SEe you