Jack and Jill

Come Jill.. to the world of sin...
Yes jack to the world unseen…

Together we climb the mountain top

And let’s fill up what’s lacked

Come Jill let’s make new mistakes

Yes jack… whatever it takes…

You’re not my rose.. But when you jump, ill jump remember?

Its crystal clear jack… we will do this together...

Where to now my heart?

I don’t care as long as we are not apart...

Let’s leave this place... I don’t know where to…

Its ok, I don’t care... as long as I’m with you…

Hey Jill we’re like bonnie and Clyde

So are you telling me you’re tired?

No my heart, I will stand still… with you I am strong

I hope I won’t be weak if something goes wrong

I’m stumbling… I’m stumbling my love… its getting tougher…

I’m tired Jack… I’m tired… things are getting rougher…

Please hold on.. Come run after me.. It’s not always easy…

I don’t know jack… I don’t want to be sleazy…

Come run after me… come jill… just a little bit more…

I have no answer jack… im getting sore…

I understand… just take a rest.. I will wait for you…

*silence*

I’ll wait my love… I’ll wait.. or let me come to you…

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09.18.2015

TOTGA

I was drunk and cried myself to sleep...
But that didnt... still... gave me the peaceful and deep slumber that i am wanting..
I smoked like a chimney..
With every puff that i take and every breath i released is as much as hurt inside me...
Rapid and incessantly...
I went to sleep.. woke up... but still wanting you...
My heart cries for you...
Yearning for you..
In silent...
In the dark...
I want you back...
Please let me have you back...
Its kinda pathetic really...
And then i realized...
I can still love you... without me telling you..
Or the whole world...
But right now.. i just want to sleep...
A lot of it...
Ive never given much of a choice in this matter.
I have to act normal... like nothing happened.
Just last week i was offered by my mom to go home and manage an offer that was hard to resist. I thought about it...
I was with her when mom called...
I was staring at her..
And everytime i stare at her theres a thought in my head that saying "i wanna be with her... she is the girl that i love"
I said its a good start...
I was about to do the biggest decision in my life... i did not tell cos i want to do it when its all done..
Cos words for me are sacred...
The situation is unsure but my feelings arent...
Finally.... i have her....
Finally... she made me live again...
But suddenly... we broke up...
And i know.. as long as im loving her...
As long as i have this feeling for her...
I know i will sleep and wake up and live everyday wanting her...
needing her...
missing her...
Loving her...
It hurts... hurts a lot..
Cos i know no matter what i do... none of my gestures will bring her back to me...
I will always love you pretty girl...
And i can say... like the song... you are my "the one that got away"...
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09.18.2015