shermin

i just miss you hearty...
hope you're always ok..

di na bAleng di mo ko maAlala pag masaya ka.
bsta pag may pRob ka, handa kitang damayan..

RUBY

Lot of my friends in FMS (Friendz maGic society) r curious who ruby is..
di talaga ako puwedeng magbigay ng clue.
aAaw..
il just keep it low,
You kn0w the ruby tHing.
less mentions, less talks,less questions..
Im trying to get rid of the "fEeling"..
buT she's/its like a boomerang.
everytime i throw,it keeps on coming back.
i have learned,
That the day i was born,since then,she was a part of me.
THings are getTing crazY.. its hard to fEel tHis kind of tHing esPecialy if there is nO oNe you could share it witH..
hiding sometHing so obvious is the hardEst.
oh well, di lahat ng mahal mo kelangang syotain.
di ba?
that way,we cAn keEp our friendsHip.

go0dniGht world

ruby,im misSin you already

Maimed

The world seems not to acquiesce
For the love that we shared..
really.. its a pesky fact that life is so unfair..
my dreams suddenly razed by a debacling situation that happened..
now i'm taking my pilgrimage to hell after i experienced heaven..
i indite your name in my heart but you effaced it with a blast..
you said you loved me but i never knew how true it was..
You unveil yourself to lamia from being a fay..
you corrode my heart since that very day..
open your eyes and watch me die under the rain of sorrow..
and bury me in your cold casket tomorrow..
you trifled my heart and you played the game unfair..
loneliness vanquished my life,
Now it's time to go to my lair...

Fascinated

Woke up today with a heavy head, but with light feelingz...

finaly.. Well, d aman sure. Peo ds gurl fascinates me.
dati pa naman pero d puede dati. Ngayon pwede siguro, pero i wont risk the friendshp. Masaya na ko na andian lang siya. Im very fond of her.
Wag lang pahalata.
hehe
KAHit kelan tiope ako.

Enjoy ako this day,made friends. :)

Hope tomorrow would be better in every aspect.

goodnight to half of the world.

Who art thou?

May napanaGinipan ako today. Sweet, sweet dream..
Parang real, woke up disapointed cause it is not..
i miss the feeling of loving someone..

ok,di na naman ako makatulog.

kikiniG lang ng s0ngs, waAa,senti m0dE..

i wish she'd be my gf, and il court her everyday.
gudnyt world

stubborn lady

pagkagising ko, dami ako text from this lady friend of mine. .though parang di nya ako tinuturing na friend.

long story.. she said she got a thing for me.. paasa daw ako, pero sinabi ko naman na sa kanya sa simula pa lang na friends lang kami. so the story goes on.

we got closer, and what amazed me is she dont actually act her age,. she drives me crazy most of the time. nauubos niya ang pasensiya ko.
but hey, she is still my friend, and matagal na rin kaming constant na nagkakausap and nagkakatext.

1 day a butch friend of hers texted me and ask me to leave her alone.and said that i shouldnt call her anymore. so i gave her my word na di ko na nga siya tatawagan...

but after a while,,nagtext na wag na lang daw, so parang back to normal basta wag ko lang daw sasaktan ang friend niya.

all those times, all im saving is our friendship.
but i was left unappreciated.

nagsorry siya, sia daw ang may kasalanan,

and oh, 1 thing i gotta tell,,
she always judge people, she'd put your character in a test.
thats one thing i have noticed from her.

in her sense of word, di ka pwedeng magkamali.

so back today when i woke up.

ill just quote her text then:

"SABI MO SA AKIN MAHAL MO KO KAYA MO KO TINATAMA"
-common sense. pag mahal mo ang isang tao. mapakaibigan, anak o kapatid,, di mo ba siya at least pagsasabihan pag medyo lam mong di na maganda.

"BAKIT KELAN MO KO MINAHAL"
-she's insensitive and numb in every sense of the word.
would i waste my time? mag-eexcel pa ba ako ng effort? where in fact siya nga lang ang nabibigyan ko ng time sa grupo. mahal ko siya kasi kaibigan ko siya. pero di niya ramdam yun kasi iba ang pamantayan niya.

"KAHIT MADALAS AKO ANG KAUSAP MO, MAY NAINTINDIHAN KA BA KUNG BAKIT AKO GANITO?"
-but ofcourse.. you always judge people and compare them to you,. and you dont easily trust people kaya tinetest mo agad characteristcs nila.. and you always judge negatively na hindi naman totoo because of your insecurities in life

for example, di kita gusto kasi pangit ka? sino ba always nagbrorought up ng topic na yun? excuse me lady, but not me.

"HINDI MO AQ MAHAL,SARILI MO LANG ANG MINAHAL MO. AYAW MO AKONG IWASAN DAHIL MASARAP SA PAKIRAMDAM MUNG PAWANG MAY ASO NA NAGMAMAKAAWA NA MAHALIN MO"
-ok this one, below the belt na to. nung tinext ako ng friend niya.. ive decided na,, siguro nga kailangan ko ng iwasan,parang wala ding sense na ipaglaban ko pa yung friendship namin kasi ako lang naman ang may gusto. pero like what i have stated above, binawi ng friend niya dahil na rin sa pakiusap ng lady friend kong ito, and ako din sinabihan niya ng sorry and sabi niya wag na daw akong umiwas.. masarap sa pakiramdam ko ang may nagmamahal sa akin? YES. lahat ng tao gusto ng pagmamahal, pero madaming klase ng pagmamahal. sa palagay mo ba, kung gusto ko yung ganun, yung ganung klase ng pagmamahal mo, sasabihin ko ba na friends lang tayo?
sa palagay mo, bakit ko nibreak ang gf ko dati na lam kong mahal ako, pero di ko mahal? kung gusto ko ng ganun, di ako makikipagbreak and hahayaan ko lang siya na mahalin ako.
at sa sinabing mong naghahabol, dahil ikaw lang ang babaeng nagmamahal sakin ng ganito na ikaw na yung may pinakamatindi?
well, for the record, HINDI. i have few of them, the ones who also calls my mom when i change number. but i dont have to brag about it.pinapaintindi ko lang na wag akong ijudge ng ganun.

dahil hindi ko ipinagmamalaki na may naghahabol sa akin, when in the first place ayoko..

pero, walang sense magpaliwanag sayo, dahil hinding hindi mo mauunawaan..

kasi kung ano ang nasa isip niya, di mo na mababago yun.

sad lang sa part ko na yung months ng friendship namin ay napunta sa wala.

ang sad din,, namigay siya ng namigay sa kanya isusumbat..
in the first place,di ko naman tinatanggap..

haist

POST VALENTINE DATE

Today I think it went well..
Dinner Date with Candle Light,, seem superficial but so natural.
I had fun, she had fun, we both shared laughter and stories. We had a petty quarrel before our meal, but we both know, its just our way of saying how we miss each other.
haha

the rest, is another perfect moment.

just updating this page. been busy with my other blogsites

my business blogsite, hehe

ill be updating this blog soon as i can..

about my besh.. well,, im gradually moving on..

but i still want to spend time with her.

ok, time to end this piece