i know... i see...

i know...
you're unreachable...
but i can't help it...

i see...
you're beautiful..
and you know it...

your songs give me feelings i never felt before...
its like wind that makes me soar...
your soundcloud account is where my playlist at...
your picture on my wallpaper makes my phone look hot...

your name on my newsfeed makes my day...
i read your status, whatever you might say...
i guess you love pizza, i wish i got enough dough...
i got this huge crush on you, and i cant take it low...

everybody wants you,, that i know...
we're exactly opposite, that i see...
in my head, i hear your silent 'no'...
but i just want these words to be free...

i know....
im not your type i'm far from it..
and its just a crush...

i see ize sy,
you give me hype, you should know it..
you give me that rush...

~vhonskall


para kay crush ize sy

the undead

I walk slowly passing these fast-pacing people...
The world is in motion and i feel so little...
I stare in blank not really drawing for attention...
I can't feel anything,, numb in emotion...
But Not so numb,,, i feel cold.. Very cold...
Maybe i just needed someone to hold...
I miss that warm fuzzy feeling inside..
I hate this apocalypse, the darkness it provides..
Wandering in the vicinity where we used to walk...
We used to laugh together, now i can't even talk...
I groan, i mumble, im rotting where you can't see...
I yearn, i crave for something we can't be...
Undead... Walking without soul..
Im incomplete.. I used to be whole...
I have a Broken heart and a Broken brain...
Letting my all get used to feel all the pain...
Let's walk my fellow undead, let's search the food to feed our souls...
Beware to the humans who'll hit our brains and make us fall...
__
wala lang... Nanood lang ng warm bodies.. :-)
and ganyan pakiramdam ko nung broken ako...
parang patay lang. Nasa grocery ako nun...

broken mirror

...Mirror, mirror on the wall...
...She dropped you just like that, now you're on the floor..
...Many adored you, many would love to have you..
...But she was the lucky one who got you..
...mirror, mirror on the wall..
...I know you've given your all..
...but your use is long overdue...
...there's someone better than you...
...but she could've given you an extra love & more care...
...like how you showed her what she wants to see everytime she stare..
...but no, she dropped you just like that & broke into pieces...
...after you've done everything & granted all her wishes...
...now, the fantasies & the magics are all gone now...
...she left you & all that's left with you is her broken vow...
...she left you into pieces, as she let you fall..
...she stabbed your heart unto your very soul...
...from that moment, like a trash, you don't have a use at all...
...cos now, you're just like a dirt, Unuseful, broken mirror on the floor...

rainbow

All i thought, rainbow comes after the rain..
But you gave me first the happiness & then the pain..
You brightened up my sky then you made it colorful..
But after that nice treatment, you treated me so cruel..
You said you're my rainbow and colors you'll paint..
But then my sky started to faint..
You promised me of rainbow but dark clouds were formed..
It wasn't just a rain, it was a great storm..
You've painted yellow, shiney, shimmerin and splendin..
A little bit of comedy, you've painted green..
I was so speechless, im runnin out of words to say..
You've painted red so i'll always have a lovely day..
Purple.. A bit sensational & a bit sexy
orange.. To keep me warm & comfy..
and you painted blue
it only means you're my rainbow..
But then things has changed between us..
I said i love you but its me you never trust..
Baby that hurts me a lot!
I love u, believe it or not..
Its a normal cycle, butterfly after bein called "worm"..
But i never thought its the rainbow first before the storm..
It's more tham a storm, greater than a typhoon..
Feels like after the flood, i am now alone..
You made me smile then you made frown..
And in sadness, you made me drown..
I thought those colors come when the rain is through..
But in our case, you've poured the rain after the rainbow..

i was raised by a queen

You don't run a country, like queen Beatrix of Netherlands..
But you changed our lives with your own hands..
You taught me how to care for others without asking in return..
You taught me a lot and a lot ive learned..
You were not born in a palace like Queen Margrethe of Denmark..
But without you, our home would be close to dark..
You gave light to our lives interesting journey..
I'm sorry that i'm not too expressive, coz i might sound too corny..
I'm not that showy, but mother, you mean so much to me..
I didn't know much about the world, but you showed me..
You don't own a kingdom like Elizabeth, the queen..
But you own a good heart that would amaze any king..
You taught me good things and taught me that bad things shouldnt be done..
They said queens have crowns, but even without it, you are already one..
Gracefulness, gentleness, being respectful and sensitive, you've taught me those..
You've taught me when to tell what's on my mind and when to pause..
We're not really a royalty..
Or a part of a monarchy..
But for us, you are a queen..
You're strong, yet calm..and everything in between..
You treated us like prince and princess..
You're like a supermom and i am really impressed..
If this is a school, you are the dean..
But in our hearts, you are the queen..
I'm so glad i'm a part of your gene..
And for that, i can proudly say, i was raised by a queen..

*a mothers day tribute.
I know its a lil late, but then again, a mothers day is everyday..

Happy mothers day mom.

>>vhonskall

Close Your Eyes and Think

I wanna be with you 'though i am far away..
So i'm making myself visible in every possible way..
Remember my face, close your eyes and think..
I'll hug you from behind while you're doin the dishes by the sink..
I'll be with you in the sofa, while we watch our favorite tv program..
I'll be the melody from the guitar with your every strum..
I'll be the music that you listen to, i'll be in every song..
We're miles apart, but i'll be with you and it won't be long..
I'll be the sunlight that will greet you every morning as you wake up..
I'll be the mirror that will tell you you're beautiful with or without you're make up..
Maybe we're far away and all we can do is to imagine..
It's like you're my superwoman and you save me from the dungeon..
So while we're not together,just close ur eyes and think,,
that im with you at the dining table, happily eating and sharing drinks..
I'll stand by you in the bathroom sharing some intimate scenes..
I'm not gonna spill the details cos u probably know what i mean.. :)
i'll be with you in the bedroom, cuddling and snuggling on your bed..
We may not be physically together, but we shared those moments in our head..
As you go to sleep, i'll hug u tight and i'll kiss you..
I close my eyes and think about you everytime i miss you..
We will be together,i know and its just a matter of days and hours..
We will shut the world outside and we'll build ours..
we may not be together right now and i can't be there today,,
just close ur eyes, think of me.. And you'll see, i'm not that far away..


"i'll see you"

>>vhonskall
05.02.2011

one day without me

If one day i'm bereft of life, i wouldn't want you to cry..
And i wouldn't want you to think that life is wry..
And if that day comes and that day starts w/o me,,,
i just want to tell you "im sorry"
for the many things that i didn't get to say..
For all the many things that we didn't do together everyday..
If one day i didn't respond after you call my name,,,
please understand that i'm needed there, so an angel came..
If tomorrow starts without me, live that day and all that will come..
Just think of the days we shared together, and all the fun..
Be brave.. Be very brave and please be strong..
You know i'll be watching you from above..beside our Father's throne...
I will always be everywhere around you, wherever you are..
Didn't i tell you that i am goin to be your star?
So if one day, you'll wake up without me, don't think that we are apart..
Coz i am always with you as long as im right there in your heart..

~vhonskall
04/29/2011

MY FAIRYTALE GIRL

our love story is very rare

just like a fairy tale

we may not be Romeo and Juliet

but our love story is close to it

you're my loving Snowhite

you got a red lips that i want to bite

an innocent smile always play upon your lips

you just don't know, you're an innocent tease

just like Cinderella, you're all day in a work

blowin' away the garbage, the dust and the dirt

you're not like the others who were certified flirts

coz you're just for me, since the day of your birth

when you're finished and work all done

like Pocahontas, you're a playful one

you dont take weeds,you don't drink , you don't smoke

you got me girl in just one look

you're not as great as ariel, the little mermaid

but my love for you will never fade

my kiss hug and love i'll save

you'll get more even after a decade

rapunzel , oh like rapunzel

all the lovely words i want to tell

you're almost perfect from toes to hair

to love you more is all that i care

i don't have a genie like alladin

but i'll treat you my princess like princess jasmin

to all the girls from northpole to southpole

it's you who holds my heart and soul

We've got the true love like Beauty and the Best

When I'm with you, my mind is at peace

Taking walk and be with you every night
Dancing so sweet 'till the morning light

Like sleeping Beauty when your energy stops

Just take a rest and my kiss will wake you up

I'll give you my warmest hug

and start a new day with you my love

You're my fairy tale girl

In my fairy tale world

But in reality, no fairy tale castle

Only true lovely words

Like a princess, I'll take care of you

I'm gonna make your every single wish come true

You're more than a gold, gem or pearl

You're the reality of my fairy tale girl...

--vhonskall

"you are my princess"

Do u ever think about waidee?

i've said too much words..
to u, i've opened my world..
i released what's on my head..
i guess too much has been said..
But it's okay, coz i want you in it.
But i never knew, if u can feel it..
i dont know what's on your mind, how u feel about this..
who u want, who u like and who u want to kiss...
i know u already know, u feel this attraction..
But i cant read u, i dunno ur reaction..
Sometimes ur sweet, sometimes ur not..
Am i in d midst of something cold & something hot?
My sun doesnt rise or set on you
but most of d time, my mind sets on u..
When ur idle, when uv got nothing to do,.
Do u ever think of me too?
SOon as i wake up, i crave for u..
Now i wonder, do you ever do that too?
I SLeep well if u bid me goodnight and sweetdreams too..
If u think of a person, the question is who..?
QUestions unanswered, love unreturned..
Do i have to keep it or let it burn?
HAVe u ever felt ds way, have u ever thought of WaiDee?
Do u even like waidee,
Have u ever liked me?

-vhonskall
03/23/2011

that succubus

ok, so Im goin twe type an on-the-spot-rhyme for a sweet lass.

so, here we go.

first she invaded my mind..

like my spirit is drowned by wine..

then she entered my dreams and I don't regret about it

I know whats goin on, but I just went through with it

she trespassed the vicinity of my heart and a part of my soul..

I like the way she giggles, enough to make me fall..

I love things about her like how Brooke Loves Broody

Im just thinkin things, like Does she think about WaiDee?

--vhonskall

aight, thats all for now. Just a 2minute time for miLady.

But will be stayin for a long time (i hope/wish).

i'll just make another story about her next time,

finished downloading. :p

:-*

DEATH

You wake me up toniGht
WHY are you here?
you should have warned me
I THouGht my time is n0t tHis near

i never thouGht you'd come so soon
BUT n0w you're here inside my room

is this the omen?
is it time for me to leave?
i thought you'll n0t yet come
I TH0uGht i'd still live

you stareD at me
AND Your eyes are sPeakin
"WE should leave" dats what they're sayin

i smiled so sad and i was ready to rise
I JUSt fELt tearz floweD fr0m my eyes

you took me by the hand and my soul drifted apart
i asked: "is tHis the real time?
is tHis the end or the start?"

but i guesS,whatever it may be,
Wherever we may go,
I should aCcept it
MAYbe i dEserve it
SO i'll go with you

we flew away...
blankness followeD..
wind cradleD me,
Lull me into an endlesS sleEp...


---
wrote tHis when i was in HiGh school.
during crucial time..
e2 na rin ung time. Ung gbing i cheateD dEath. Muntik na k0ng mamatay, i was in a bike With loose break then 10wHEeler truck (not sure if it was ten but it was hella big) cAme aCR0sS. I was saveD by an inch or two.
i fELt d wind/air cAuseD by the sPeEd of d truck. Napatayo mga ta0ng nakaupo sa kaBilang kalsada.. it was dark,buT they saw what hapPeneD. kung di ko nailiko agad ung bike, then wala na ko ngay0n. Di na din nkapaGColege.
it was intense

Beside that christmas tree

/ She's not in a gift box, no ribbons or laces
/ I Acted like a kid, then excitement and happiness races
/ Did santa came late or santa came early?
/ bcoz there's a precious gift beside that christmas tree
/ WRapped in a sweater with black and gray
/ "PLease say that's mine", thats what i prayed
/ Last year i've been bad but i've been good too
/ THis year le'me have her & i'll be a good boo
/ THis is truly a surprise if this is a gift
/ 'Coz i'll Promise santa, she's the one i will keep
/ i went close to this precious gift to see if my name's in it
/ i looked every part ive never seen it
/ THen it hits me i know where it is
/ The place to know if its mine, hers or his
/ its her heart it's written inside
/ so just tell me, there's no reason to hide
/ I Promise santa i w0nt mind if he's early or late
/ Just tell me you're my life's precious gift, my souls perfect mate

-vhonskall

~wrote tHis while having my lucky me instant maC and cheEse and rebisco buTter sandwich.
its for that Girl besidE that xmas treE.
its the 1st quarter of 2010 btw.

Maimed

The world seems not to acquiesce
For the love that we shared..
really.. its a pesky fact that life is so unfair..
my dreams suddenly razed by a debacling situation that happened..
now i'm taking my pilgrimage to hell after i experienced heaven..
i indite your name in my heart but you effaced it with a blast..
you said you loved me but i never knew how true it was..
You unveil yourself to lamia from being a fay..
you corrode my heart since that very day..
open your eyes and watch me die under the rain of sorrow..
and bury me in your cold casket tomorrow..
you trifled my heart and you played the game unfair..
loneliness vanquished my life,
Now it's time to go to my lair...

The time you said goodbye

It made me cry
It made me sigh
It made me shiver
It frights me under
It made me lose my mind
It made me flashback time
It made me feel crazy
It made my future hazy
I think my strength was lost
It made me stop and pause
It made me feel insane
Don't know whom i am to blame
I want to scream
It made me lost my gleam
It made me feel so bad
It made my mood so sad
It made me forget who I am
It feels that

THOUSAND YEARS

Thousand Years

True love burns in a thousand years
it deserves an ocean of tears
The sun Haven't shine on me since you went away
I can't believe we will go astray
Love is ironic, life is unfair
You left me when I thought you will always be there
I won't let anyone to enter my life again
Because I know this pain will remain
My love for you won't run out of flame
though in my mind, i want to erase your name
Hatred is existing in my emotion
But my love for you is powerful like a potion
I'll just tolerate this pain and try to pretend
'coz whoever I'll meet, its still you till the end..
Thousand years is until my last breath

I will love you still even after death

---vhonskall---

"uhm... I don't really want to talk about this...
hurts still..."

Unable to Stay, Unwilling to Leave

UNABLE TO STAY, UNWILLING TO LEAVE

Can't be calm feels like a sinking titanic
I can't be so cool , I'm feeling so panicked
I wanna be with you but I cannot stay
Unwilling to go but I must go away
Feels like I'm sinking like Jack and Rose
Can't be calm, stop, think and pause
Baby, I'm running out of time
After this, you are no longer mine
Unable to stay, unwilling to leave
Without you, how I'm goin' to live
I hate it coz time moves too fast
I've loved too many, but will you be the last?
Having you in my life, I feel so lucky
Now i'm losing you, i'm so unhappy..
My heart's beating fast everytime I stare at the clock
I can hardly breath everytime it tick-tock
I'm leaving and you know i have enough reason
But without you, feels like i'm in a prison
Right now I should be loving you and I should give more
But I'll set you aside and this feeling I'll ignore
If I can give the world, you know I would give
I don't wanna go, but honey I should leave
I know you can't understand why I can't stay
You'll always be with me, that's all i can say..
Unwilling to go but unable to be beside you
What am I gonna do, I can't decide to
I love you and I know You Love me
And I'll always love you wherever I may be
I know that its not easy to escape
I won't show you my heart 'coz you know how it shape
You know who's inside and you know that it's you
I wanna hold you but I'm sorry I must go
I hate it, feels like I'm drowning
I don't wanna go, But I'm not staying
Can't decide, I'm caught in the middle
Can't think straight, feels like a riddle
What am I gonna do, I'm really not sure
This heartache, nobody can cure
What am I saying?
To you it's a puzzle..
It makes my body shiver and my muscles
Unable to stay, Unwilling to leave
It's a crossroad for me, which is the right way?
I don't want to go.. But sorry I cannot stay....

----vhonskall----


"I made this way back 2003...
i had temporary loves.. so...

about the title, i got tha idea from TITANIC's soundtrack..

hmm...."

I don't Love You Anymore

I Don't Love You Anymore

The feeling of nostalgia is not here anymore
Since you hurt my heart like you slammed a door
My love for you was baffled
by the pain you've caused
there's no room for you in my heart,
doors and windows were closed
You've fooled me once and more than twice
The flame of my love for you,
seared by your big lies
What you've said and what you've done
are all parts of your mockery
But I'm leavin' it all behind and now
you'll only be a part of my history..
I won't forget that once you're my tormentor,
Goodbye.... I don't love you anymore



----Vhonskal----

~You ArE to Me...~

You Are To Me...

You're like a star that I can't reach
But still there that shines me through...
You're more than an air that I breathe
'Coz life is not worthy living If I can't have you...
You're like the that so far away
Giving me warm in a cold day...
you're like the wind that I can't see
Touchin' me so gently like you're comforting me...
You're the moon that guiding my dark night
like a morning dew that freshen me up with the morning light..
You're my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
I'll trade a bunch of diamonds just to have you...
You are to me my everything
and I won't trade you into anything...
With you by my side, I can pass any strife,,,
You are to me my Life...


====vhonskall====

~My Sky~

sMy SKY

Baby you're my sky and I'm the bird
You got me flyin' so happy, have you observed?
You always make me happy everytime I fly
But I'm fallin' down so fast when you make me cry

Your love makes me feel soar higher
If you hurt me, feels like my wings were on a fire
But whatever you do, and whatever I do,
You're my sky and I can't leave you

I'm flying in my sky and it seems I couldn't get tired
'coz I'm so happy with it and to the clouds I'll ride
I love you so much not only that you are my sky
but because you make me feel alive everytime I fly

You're my sky and i'm the bird
you'll be my highness and to you I'll serve
The things you needed and the things you want
'Coz for this bird, the sky is so important

The love of you always lift me,,
but it's seems my sky is not happy with me
I admit you're hurtin' me and foolin' me
That's why sometimes I feel like a falling bee..

do you know what's happening when you're hurtin' this bird
I'm cryin' so hard and my mind's gettin' blurd
I'm trying not to fly and trying to cut off my wings
Always thinking of you and sad songs I'll sing

But without you, feels like a heart without a home
You know without my sky, I can't go along
So maybe the pain I'll just ignore
'Coz i'm just loving you more and more...

So this bird will always fly at the sky
Flying so happy, soaring so high...
Feeling the strong wind 'till the day I die,
I will always be your bird and you will always be my sky


--vhonskall

-----during my 1st year on college... :-)

~REMINISCE~

ReMiNiScE

Flashback in time,
Pictures in my mind
Remembering the past
and time that glide so fast

Picture of me
picture of you
A yesterday that seem so near
Resounding voice i hear

Will tomorrow be like that
or the yesterday be forgotten
what we'll think 'bout
in a moment of loving

Resounding voice of laughter
memories that we made together
we could never get it back
those days that i wasn't so tough

Having you, Holding you yesterday...
All of the sudden, they flew away
Just rememberin' it whenever I miss...
Couldn't get it back so I just Reminisce

---vhonskall--