Meet Up after college

tomorrow, I'll be meetin up my college friends..
Well, thats how I see them
and I duno if they treat me as their friend...

Before graduating to college, life has a lot of fun!
We had some tremendous amount of happy and sad moments..

loveteam...
teasing...
hanging out..
life was good..
but then, here comes
jealousy...
lying...
lame excuses...

i'll be there tomorrow...
to have a good time maybe...
and to save the "FRIENDSHIP"
if it really was existed...
but for me, I loved them truly...

Tomorrow,
its my last last blow..

and if it doesnt work out,
at least I tried my best....


coz I wont stop because Im tired..
I'll stop when I know i have done my part...

I just wish things will get back the way it used to be...

I love them...

But after this, I'll let go and love myself...


till then...



---waidee---

PLANAX... INOCELDA

my tito died...

and, sa pagkamatay niya,
naipakita ang madaming ugali ng mga kamag-anak....

may nbuong samahan,
at may mga gaps na namagitan...


i have this tita that they think is powerful...
she got the money, thats why....


and im weeping to see my mom na ginaganun ganun na lang nila...


looking back,
nung ok pa naman ang buhay,
naaalala ko pa,
lague sila sa hauz...

ngauN???
di man lang sila pumapasok dun..

ok lang yun,
pero sana wag sirain ang nanay ko..

my other titos and titas, parang linta,
pero ok lang un,
basta wala lang silang masamang sabihin samin..


I remember, few weeks after my tito died,
tatay ko ang lagueng andun for him....

siya ung tinatawagan..
when he gives money,
may kasamang sympathy and lungkot...

but my other tito??
i remember when he "gave" that 1thousand bill to my cousin,
he was furious...and angry...
nilapag sa lamesa, sabay alis...

tatay ko,
gamit ang luma naming tricycle,
xa ang nagddrive para mapachek-up si uncle...
humihiram ng jeep para lang mas comfortable...

humihingi pa siya ng pang-gasolina sa iba pa niyang kapatid
NGUNIT WALA
pero pagdating ng hapon, makikita mo,
nasa sugalan...


nung namatay si uncle,
naitsapwera na si papa....
dinadaan-daanan na lamang..
di na sinali sa mga plano...
di na kasali sa mga decisions...
ang masakit,
inuungkat ang mga bagay na kanilang
ini-exaggerate ....

and how i pity my mom for that...

nabulag na ang ibang kapatid sa mabulaklak na bunganga ng iba..

naghari ang di mga kadugo...

ang masaklap,
ang asawa ni uncle,
inusumbong pa si papa sa aming "powerful" auntie....

buti na lang, andiyan pa ung ibang maituturing pa ring kamag-anak..

sa araw ng libing,
kompleto sila,
ngunit di ko man lang naantay ang gusto kong sandali..
ang mag-usap-usap kaming lahat...

pero pagdating pala ng gabi,
nag-usap-usap pala sila...

ngunit di na kasama ang iba dahil wala namang silang pasabi.....

pero punyeta, sabi ba naman daw, kung wala daw ung iba na maitulong,
eh di sila na lang daw na nandun.....

TANGNA TALAGA NOH??????
panung andun ang iba, eh wala nga silang sinabi...


ayaw magsalita ni papa,
bat ganun?
maxado na siyang mabait...

ako, nagtitimpi lang, pero malapit na kong mapuno...


pero eto ha....
ako magsasabi kung ayaw sabihin ni papa senyu...


1. Si papa ang lagueng andun nung maysakit pa si tito..
oo wala kaming pera, pero andun ang pagkalinga....

2. Si papa ay tumawag sa isang kamag-anak sa abroad.
At di katulad ng iba, hindi sa kamay niya dumiretso ang pera,
KUNDI SA ASAWA NIYA

3. HINDI NAMIN NILILISTA ANG KAHIT NA KALIIT-LIITANG detalye
ng kung anu mang nabili namin o nagastos namin para papalitan kay PA.
Dahil hindi ganun ang kamag-anak!!!!!

4. WALA mang maitulong ang ibang kapatid dahil walng pera,
may iba namang bagay na puwede nilang ittulong

subaybayan nyu na lang ang iba pa,
00wi na ko...

di man ako, kami nagsasalita,
maghintay lang kayu


-=----ako toh----=-

ABOUT MY POSTS

well yeah, mostly heartaches...
kasi ba naman, those happy times, wala ako time magsulat
kasi lahat ng time ko, naktuon sa kanila
hahaha
un....
mahilig ako sa love..
mahilig din akong mainlove...
pero, meron jang 1GREATLOVE (creampuff)
na hinding hindi ko ipagpapalit..
malandi ako, oo
flirt ako, affirmative...
mahilig ako sa babae, positive...
pero,
masarap magmahal.. hihi..
un un eh!!!

kayamanan ko mga anak ko..
kahit di ko sila kadugo..
kung alam lang nila kung ganu ko sila kamahal

eh un,..

sige, sa FS na lang ha
tsaka text2 na lang tau..


hehe

THOUSAND YEARS

Thousand Years

True love burns in a thousand years
it deserves an ocean of tears
The sun Haven't shine on me since you went away
I can't believe we will go astray
Love is ironic, life is unfair
You left me when I thought you will always be there
I won't let anyone to enter my life again
Because I know this pain will remain
My love for you won't run out of flame
though in my mind, i want to erase your name
Hatred is existing in my emotion
But my love for you is powerful like a potion
I'll just tolerate this pain and try to pretend
'coz whoever I'll meet, its still you till the end..
Thousand years is until my last breath

I will love you still even after death

---vhonskall---

"uhm... I don't really want to talk about this...
hurts still..."

Unable to Stay, Unwilling to Leave

UNABLE TO STAY, UNWILLING TO LEAVE

Can't be calm feels like a sinking titanic
I can't be so cool , I'm feeling so panicked
I wanna be with you but I cannot stay
Unwilling to go but I must go away
Feels like I'm sinking like Jack and Rose
Can't be calm, stop, think and pause
Baby, I'm running out of time
After this, you are no longer mine
Unable to stay, unwilling to leave
Without you, how I'm goin' to live
I hate it coz time moves too fast
I've loved too many, but will you be the last?
Having you in my life, I feel so lucky
Now i'm losing you, i'm so unhappy..
My heart's beating fast everytime I stare at the clock
I can hardly breath everytime it tick-tock
I'm leaving and you know i have enough reason
But without you, feels like i'm in a prison
Right now I should be loving you and I should give more
But I'll set you aside and this feeling I'll ignore
If I can give the world, you know I would give
I don't wanna go, but honey I should leave
I know you can't understand why I can't stay
You'll always be with me, that's all i can say..
Unwilling to go but unable to be beside you
What am I gonna do, I can't decide to
I love you and I know You Love me
And I'll always love you wherever I may be
I know that its not easy to escape
I won't show you my heart 'coz you know how it shape
You know who's inside and you know that it's you
I wanna hold you but I'm sorry I must go
I hate it, feels like I'm drowning
I don't wanna go, But I'm not staying
Can't decide, I'm caught in the middle
Can't think straight, feels like a riddle
What am I gonna do, I'm really not sure
This heartache, nobody can cure
What am I saying?
To you it's a puzzle..
It makes my body shiver and my muscles
Unable to stay, Unwilling to leave
It's a crossroad for me, which is the right way?
I don't want to go.. But sorry I cannot stay....

----vhonskall----


"I made this way back 2003...
i had temporary loves.. so...

about the title, i got tha idea from TITANIC's soundtrack..

hmm...."

I don't Love You Anymore

I Don't Love You Anymore

The feeling of nostalgia is not here anymore
Since you hurt my heart like you slammed a door
My love for you was baffled
by the pain you've caused
there's no room for you in my heart,
doors and windows were closed
You've fooled me once and more than twice
The flame of my love for you,
seared by your big lies
What you've said and what you've done
are all parts of your mockery
But I'm leavin' it all behind and now
you'll only be a part of my history..
I won't forget that once you're my tormentor,
Goodbye.... I don't love you anymore



----Vhonskal----

~You ArE to Me...~

You Are To Me...

You're like a star that I can't reach
But still there that shines me through...
You're more than an air that I breathe
'Coz life is not worthy living If I can't have you...
You're like the that so far away
Giving me warm in a cold day...
you're like the wind that I can't see
Touchin' me so gently like you're comforting me...
You're the moon that guiding my dark night
like a morning dew that freshen me up with the morning light..
You're my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
I'll trade a bunch of diamonds just to have you...
You are to me my everything
and I won't trade you into anything...
With you by my side, I can pass any strife,,,
You are to me my Life...


====vhonskall====

~My Sky~

sMy SKY

Baby you're my sky and I'm the bird
You got me flyin' so happy, have you observed?
You always make me happy everytime I fly
But I'm fallin' down so fast when you make me cry

Your love makes me feel soar higher
If you hurt me, feels like my wings were on a fire
But whatever you do, and whatever I do,
You're my sky and I can't leave you

I'm flying in my sky and it seems I couldn't get tired
'coz I'm so happy with it and to the clouds I'll ride
I love you so much not only that you are my sky
but because you make me feel alive everytime I fly

You're my sky and i'm the bird
you'll be my highness and to you I'll serve
The things you needed and the things you want
'Coz for this bird, the sky is so important

The love of you always lift me,,
but it's seems my sky is not happy with me
I admit you're hurtin' me and foolin' me
That's why sometimes I feel like a falling bee..

do you know what's happening when you're hurtin' this bird
I'm cryin' so hard and my mind's gettin' blurd
I'm trying not to fly and trying to cut off my wings
Always thinking of you and sad songs I'll sing

But without you, feels like a heart without a home
You know without my sky, I can't go along
So maybe the pain I'll just ignore
'Coz i'm just loving you more and more...

So this bird will always fly at the sky
Flying so happy, soaring so high...
Feeling the strong wind 'till the day I die,
I will always be your bird and you will always be my sky


--vhonskall

-----during my 1st year on college... :-)

~REMINISCE~

ReMiNiScE

Flashback in time,
Pictures in my mind
Remembering the past
and time that glide so fast

Picture of me
picture of you
A yesterday that seem so near
Resounding voice i hear

Will tomorrow be like that
or the yesterday be forgotten
what we'll think 'bout
in a moment of loving

Resounding voice of laughter
memories that we made together
we could never get it back
those days that i wasn't so tough

Having you, Holding you yesterday...
All of the sudden, they flew away
Just rememberin' it whenever I miss...
Couldn't get it back so I just Reminisce

---vhonskall--

~SWEET RED LIPS~

SWEET RED LIPS

your sweet red lips
as red as a blood
your twinkling eyes
like the stars above

you're so cute
in that button nose
I love your look
in any poise

those thin lines
in your sweet red lips
How I wish
I could touch them and kiss

Everytime I go to bed
Everytime I close my eyes
there's nothing in my head
but your sweet smile

even in my dreams
when i fall asleep
What I dream about
is your sweet red lips


---vhonskall---

"to all the girls i'd love to kiss... hehe, peace..."

Forbidden Love

i'm her best kept secret...
like a hidden page or a leaflet...
she can't tell her mama 'coz it will complicate the issue
but she's someone who can't ditch you
i'm her forbidden lover..with a forbidden love...
we thought of running away in a cab...
our reltionship is like a roller coaster...
we feel the heat like we're in a toaster...
but we agreed not to let go, and we should fight...
'coz we know, things will go on right...
she's a girl, and i am too..
im her beau and she's my boo...
forbidden love...but feels so good..
we will fight as long as we could...
and that is untill we die...
'coz we know, forever is not a lie...
----on the spot rhyming---
vhonskall

Can't Lose You... My Meteor Garden MAnia

---

"if i ever lose you again, wait in the
place you saw me last
and I promise,
I will Find You"
--Dao Ming Shi

"I know that you're on the road
on your way home to me right now..
I will wait for you forever..."
--Shan Chai

---

Can't Lose YOu Lyric

Mei you ni
Wo hui shi shui
Xin ting zi na li
Do bu dui
Na jin tian
Ca dao zuo tian
Kong bai yi pian

Na yi tian
Zai na yi tian
Ke yi ji xu
Wei wa qing jie
Zai zhe jiao
Zha pian shui pei
Zai ni shen bian

*
Jiu suan quan shi jie
Do yao ba ni fou ding
Ye bu neng rang wo fang qu ni
Jui suan wo men de gou
Qu dou mei you le zhen ming
Wo yi rang shou hu ni

**
Oh baby, baby, baby
My baby, baby
Wo jue bu neng shi qu ni
Ni shou xin ni sheng ying
Hai zhan lin wo dei
Xin zen neng wang ji
Xiang ni jui xiang shi hu xi
Oh baby, baby, baby
My baby, baby
Wo jue bu neng shi qu ni
Bu guan ni zai na li
Wo yi ding hui zhao dao ni

Mei yi tian
Mei you yi tian
You liu xing yu
Zheng zai shi yan

Ni jiang hui
Fa xian yong yuan
Bing bu yao yuan

*
**
**

Bu guan ni
Zi na li
Wo yi ding hui
Zhao dao ni

---

English Version

(Jerry)
Without you, who am I?
Wherever my heart stops it doesn't seem right

(Vic)
On which day? Whereabouts can we carry on the unfinished love
At the cross roads, who is beside you?

(Ken)
Even if the world denies you
It won't make me give you up

(Vanness)
Even if our past has nothing to prove it

(Vanness & Ken)
I will stay by you

(All)
Oh Baby baby baby, my baby baby
I definitely can't lose you.
Your hand your voice still taking up my heart
How can I forget thinking about you is like breathing?
Oh Baby baby, my baby baby
I definitely can't lose you
Don't care where you are
I definitely will be able to find you

(Jerry)
One day there will be a day using meteor rain to prove our promises

(Vic)
You will find out forever isn't far

(Vanness)
Even if the whole world denies you
It can't make me give you up

(Vanness & Ken)
Even if our past has nothing to prove it
I will stay by you

(All) Oh Baby baby baby, My Baby baby
I definitely can't lose you
Your hand your voice still taking up my heart
How can I forget thinking about you is like breathing?
Oh baby baby, my baby baby
I definitely can't lose you
Don't care where you are
I will be able to find you

Seriously....Grey's Anatomy

"Cristina, I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you.
I could promise to be there, in sickness and in health.
I could say till death do us part. But I won't.

Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope.

I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful.
I am sure. I am steady.

And a know I'm a heart man. I take 'em apart, put 'em back together, I hold them in my hands. I am a heart man.

So this, I am sure.
You are my partner. My lover. My very best friend.
My heart...My heart beats for you.
And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands, I promise you... me."
---Isaiah Washington

as
Dr. Preston Burke






"Each of you comes here today hopeful, wanting in on the game. A month ago, you were in med school being taught by doctors. Today... you are the doctors. The seven years you spend here as a surgical resident will be the best and worst of your life. You will be pushed to the breaking point. Look around you. Say hello to your competition. Eight of you will switch to an easier specialty. Five will crack under the pressure. Two of you will be asked to leave. This is your starting line. This is your arena. How well you play, that's up to you"
---James Pickens, Jr.
as
Dr. Richard Webber






"Meredith, I do love you. Don't you see? Don't you understand? You're the love of my life. I can't leave you. But you're constantly leaving me. You walk away when you want, you come back when you want. Not everyone, not your friends, but you leave me. So, I'm asking you, if you don't see a future with us. Please... please just end it because I'm in it. Put me out of my misery."
---Patrick Dempsey
as
Dr. Derek Shepherd





MARK: "I thought you said you didn't think about me?"

ADDISON: "I don't. I'm actively NOT thinking about you right now."

MARK: "There you go underestimating me again."

ADDISON: "It's not that I underestimate you, it's just that I don't think about you. At all."

MARK: "Well, you should.
---Eric Dane
as
Dr. Mark Sloan






IZZIE: [beginning to cry] "No, I get it! Ok? I get it! You'll be ok, you'll be fine, but what about me? So don't do it for yourself, do it for me! Please! Please Denny! Please do this for me! Because if you die, oh God, you have to do this! You have to do this for me or I'll never be able to forgive you! "

DENNY: "For dying?"

IZZIE: "No! For making me love you! Please! Please do this for me, ok? Please? Ok, I can't do this if you don't! Please do this for me, cause if you don't, please?"

DENNY: "Ok. Ok, I'll do it."
---Katherine Heighl
as
Dr. Izzie Stevens





"Everytime I look at you... I feel better. It shocks me. It knocks my wind out, but it's true. I don't have to have sex with you, I'd be happy just look at you from across the room. Even that, anything, any piece of you. And, hopefully, all of you... that'd be the best thing. Because I love you..."
---T.R. Knight
as
Dr. George O'Malley

Mark: I have extraordinary techniques myself.

Hahn: You're not attracted to me. You think you are but you're not. You're attracted to me skill and my confidence and maybe how hot I look with my hands on a heart. But mostly you're attracted to me because I'm not attracted to you.

---Brooke Smith
as
Dr. Erica Hahn







"You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone, or maybe she was good for your ego, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her because, you don't destroy the person that you love!"
---Sara Ramirez
as
Dr. Callie O'Malley

"You know as well as I do it's not about what you look like, or your job, or how successful you are. It's about having people in your life that you love and who love you... that's all that matters."

"I have five rules. Memorize them. Rule number one, don't bother sucking up. I already hate you, that's not gonna change"

---Chandra Wilson
as
Dr. Miranda Bailey









"I can't compete. He's not having an affair. He's not trying to hurt me. He's just... the only people who don't know that Derek loves Meredith are Derek and Meredith. How do I compete with that?"


---Kate Walsh
as
Dr. Addison Forbes Montgomery







"here comes a moment when it's more than just a game, and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away. I could quit but here's the thing, I love the playing field."

---Ellen Pompeo
as
Dr. Meredith Grey







"For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head. So that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never wanna come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. And trust me, you don't want to...
Because when you find the right person, that first kiss,
It's everything."

---Justin Chambers
as
Dr. Alex Karev





"Everyday is my mother's birthday. My mother was born in March. He lied. He's a liar. And I'm glad. Really, I'm glad that you found him charming. I'm sure he was delightful. He's a blast after five drinks. Not so much after nine though. He gets a little weepy and mean. He's a drunk, Meredith. He probably came in and told you how wonderful you are. How sad he is he doesn't get to spend more time with you. You know, yesterday he told me I was his favorite daughter. The day before, I was an ungrateful bitch. The week before, he wrote me a check for $20,000 because he said I deserved everything life had to offer, because he was so proud of me, a lifetime's worth of proud. So thank you for letting me know that I need to keep a better eye on him. Thanks."
---Chyler Leigh
as
Dr. Lexie Grey

"There's only been three careers I've ever wanted. Ruler of my own planet, Wonder Woman, or a surgeon. I don't see any invisible planes or extra countries laying around."

---Sandra Oh
as
Dr. Cristina Yang

---

SOUNDTRACK
BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT

Breathe in, breathe out
Tell me all of your doubts
Everybody bleeds this way, just the same
Breathe in, breathe out
Move on and break down
If everyone goes away, I will stay
We push and pull
And I fall down sometimes
And I’m not letting go
You hold the other line
Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes

Hold on, hold tight
If I’m out of your sight
And everything keeps moving on, moving on
Hold on, hold tight
Make it through another night
In every day there comes a song with the dawn
We push and pull
And I fall down sometimes
And I’m not letting go
You hold the other line
Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
There is a light in your eyes, in your eyes

Breathe in and breathe out
Breathe in and breathe out
Breathe in and breathe out
Breathe in and breathe out

Look left, look right
To the moon and the night
Everything under the stars is in your arms

Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
There is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
There is a light in your eyes, in your eyes

---

I love this show... i miss my crush kate walsh because she's not in season 4 anymore...
and i miss the love team yang-and-burke...
But i haven't finished season 4 yet... the dvd that i bought was incomplete..

I LOVE GREY'S ANATOMY!!!!!
Seriously..... :)

_from the blog of my kababayan_

meaningful story

A group of alumni,, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in the work and life.

Offering his guests a coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups; porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite; telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in the hand, the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee. In most cases, it is just more expensive and in some cases even hides what we drink. What all of you wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups... And then you began eyeing each other's cups."

"Now consider this: LIFE is the coffee, the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain LIFE, and the type of cup we have does not sometimes, by consentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee."

"Enjoy your coffee! The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything."

Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly.

---hehe... i like the story kaya i kinopya ko...

hope you liked it too....

shut up and i'll talk

Ako si waidz, taga probinsiya... isang bi...
eh ano ngayon??? hehe...
kakatapos ko lang ng kursong
wala naman akong natutunan...
I came from a Community College..
So that explain evertyhing..
pero may mga natutunan din naman ako
ng onti... hehe
anyway,,,
hirap talagang mabuhay sa ganitong
sexualidad...
parang kapintasan kung tignan ka nila.
pero alam niyo, kung maipapanganak
ako ulit, at ganitong mga tao pa rin ang nandito sa mundo,
sana maipanganak na akong straight...

'di ko lam kung panu to nagsimula.. pero, andito na ako eh...
masaya ako... bat di na lang kayo maging masaya
sa mga katulad namin di ba??

Besides, wala naman kaming sinasaktan eh...
minsan, may nagsabi sakin...

"waidz, tama na.. its immoral..
wag mo ng palalain pa.. now
na maaga pa"

ouch!

talking about morality...
i heard she committed a sin
ilang beses na
although i have tried it too but just once..
because i was so broken
plus...
ilang bata na ba ang
nawala mo
o winala (abortion) mo?

i'd be more than wiling to
take care of them..

im living my life...
the way i want it to be...
or not...
but either way,
its my way..
and its MY LIFE

you have the right to care and tell me...
but you dont have the right to condemn me
and manipulate me

------im not your romeo, neither ur juliet... im your beau------